This definitely isn’t going to be a helpful suggestion post, because frankly I wouldn’t even begin to give advice on something that I’m struggling with.
I’m unhappy with WoW right now.
Socially things aren’t really that bad. There’s grumbling about cliques and some people aren’t happy, but I’m coming to accept that there’s nothing that I can do about that. You can’t really make everyone get along, and I’m happy with my friends who I talk to in and outside of the game so I’m just going to let go of everything else and enjoy that.
The problem for me is the game itself. I’m bored with it – there’s simply not much of anything that I want to do, and especially not things that I can do by myself. Most of the time if it’s not a raid night I tend to log in, check my mail, idle around Dalaran dancing or putting down a picnic basket for 5 minutes, then log off. I pretty much play this game for raiding, and when there’s nothing I can do to improve my raiding game outside of raiding itself, I just don’t have anything to do. Leveling alts is an option, but it’s not one that holds my attention for long.
I am having a little bit of a raiding issue now too, though. Since we’ve started 25s, I’ve come to realize that I vastly prefer 10s. I like smaller groups because I find them less confusing. I feel more useful as a healer in a 10 man run because we usually have just enough, while in 25 it feels like it’s no big deal if I bite the dust or don’t bring my A game. My other problem is wipes. I’ve always said that I’m okay with wipes because they’re a part of the learning process. I’m starting to feel like it was complete BS that I had even tricked myself into believing. :P Wipes are frustrating, especially when there’s no sense of progress and it feels like you’re repeating the same mistakes over and over. At the end of a wipe night, all I can think of is that my time would have been far better spent doing something else.
A person who doesn’t play WoW would probably respond to that with “so why don’t you just quit?” (believe me, my boyfriend did) and I can’t explain why that’s not an option for me. I feel a sense of responsibility towards the people who I call my friends, because I’m part of a team. I know what a big set back it can be when one of the team members decides to leave. I don’t want to be the person who lets down others that I care about. I’m really not at the point where I want to leave the game anyway, I just feel like I need a break from raiding for a little while, but I don’t want to be that person who bails when progression content is tough, only to come back and reap the rewards when it’s cleared. That’s really not what it’s about for me, I don’t give a crap about whether or not it’s easy to hoover up all the loot, but what I do care about is how I spend my time. Right now the way that I spend my time just isn’t making me as happy as it used to and I’m at a loss for deciding the best thing to do about it.